I want to open my eyesAnd see you hereTilt my head and find you there.Just close enough to touch, smell and hear.I want you hereSo very nearRight next to meLike it used to be. I just want this, that and suchAm I asking for too much? YesReality says. This was a very long poemThat will…
Let me hold on to you
Let me hold on to you.Let me hold on to youlike a leech,Let me fall awaywhen I don’t need you anymore.Don’t tear me awayfrom you please.Don’t question this.Let me hold on to you,Love you like this
Dragon Fruit
Dragon Fruit, in our roof garden. It’s also known as the white-fleshed pitahaya. Scientific name Selenicereus undatus . It has a sweet taste with a crunchy texture because of all the seeds. As far as I know, it’s called the dragon fruit because of the shape of the flower in bloom which resembles fire coming…
Pain
As the pain becomes unbearable,I reach for the painkillers.And I ask myselfwhy didn’t I reach for it before?Why did I let myself suffer for so long?What was I trying to accomplish?Was it worth it?PainThe truestmost purest part of lifePainThat rips you apartCuts you like a knife.PainThat keeps you awakeAnd drowns you at the same time.PainThat…
Late Night Thoughts (Depression)
People can help people. You can help someone with your words or actions. Maybe their problems won’t go away but you can comfort them and make them feel a little bit better. But how do you help yourself? How can you do that when you don’t know how? And even when you gather all the…
My refuge
As tears threaten to fall from my eyes, I say to myself “I am not sad, I am just hungry. Food will solve everything.” So I take refuge in dessertTo fill the desert In my heartTearing me apart
Life
This plant grew on top of concrete, in between two concrete slabs. Life is tough but we have to grow up anyway.
Valentine
I love flowering plants Much more than flowers. Still every February Among othersI bought flowers. Most of the time I gave them to you.I loved seeing that smile,You tried so hard to hide, In the corner of your lips. Giving flowers,I learned from you. The flower you gave me first,Died within hours,But it lives,In my…
Life (Turmeric)
According to Wikipedia Turmeric is a flowering plant, Curcuma longa of the ginger family, Zingiberaceae, the roots of which are used in cooking. Plants are gathered each year for their rhizomes, some for propagation in the following season and some for consumption. The rhizomes are used fresh or boiled in water and dried, after which…
Blooms in the afternoon
Eggplant Flowers look as pretty as any other ornamental flower. These flowers produce purple eggplants. They also look very pretty and taste delicious.
Blooms in the afternoon
This flower’s blooming for a while now but I don’t know it’s name. It was a gift from a very kind soul. I don’t know who that was. I doubt if my father can remember either. It’s not that we forgot because it’s not important but its because we get so many plants as gifts,…
What I feel about you
There’s somethings about you.You don’t know that do you?It’s something that I feelWhen I see you kneelIn front of me.I can’t take my eyes of off you.My dear,Can you hearMe.It’s neither love,Nor lust.It’s neither hateNor disgust.It’s just something I feel.Something real.
The sky wasn’t blue
The sky was dark green,And the ground was blue.With a hint of orange hue.The kite I had,FlewWhere toNo one knew.Even I didn’t have a clue.Things happen like this.Things I had,Good or bad,Turns into a memory.Knowing nothing lasts foreverStill, we want forever.We ask for the impossible,Thinking we’re ableTo make it possible.Living in denial.Walking in the aisle,Of…
Bloom in the noon
Rose cactus or Pereskia grandifolia in full bloom.
Flight
You flyHigh, so highUp towards the sky.But you fear and cry.Like Icarus, will you die?If you lose your wings,And fall in the sea,Dead will you be? SoYou fly low,Towards the sea below,Though you knowThat’s a no-no. You want to showThe world how you grow.Grow fast and not slow.And you let things go.Things from long ago.Things…
Update : Tidying up
Sometimes ago I wrote about tidying up my house. As in I’ll start tidy things up. So I started with my bedroom and kitchen. I cleaned the kitchen shelves and neatly put most things in place. I cleaned the piles of clothes in my bedroom. Four pile of clothe folded and was put inside my…
Empty stairs
When I’m walking downstairs,Towards the the darkness there,You’d be standing here,and stare,Like a shadow that care.So no one would dareTo hurt me.You’re always here,Anything else was rare.From where I stand here,You look so fair.Black and white hairWith love so sincere.Feels like breathing in airWithout any fear. Now that space there,Where you wereUp above the stairWill…
Update: Tidying up
Update on tidying up my house. I cleaned one and a half small area of my closet. Three and half more area left to clean. I mostly folded all the piled up clothes. Gave away a large pile of cloths to be donated. Since I gained some weight, some of the old clothes won’t fit…
What to do?
What are you suppose to doWhen nothing makes senseAnd you question reality,Live in denial?When you want to punch air,Break the groundAnd drag the sky down?When you scream from the top of your lungsAnd wake up the whole town.When you cry and cryBut tears doesn’t flow.You see white all aroundBut that’s not snow.You scream in pain.Though…
Hugs
Hug – a very common thing. It’s the act of showing love by wrapping ones arms around another. It makes people feel safe, supported and most importantly loved. From a scientific point of view, hugging produces a hormone called oxytocin in our body which makes us feel the emotions mentioned above.After going back and reading…
Chairdrobe and messy thoughts
In my life chairdrobe is a natural occurrence. According to the urban dictionary a chairdrobe is the art of piling clothes on a chair to be used in place of a closet or dresser. It also says If a chair is not available one can always defer to a floordrobe. Both exists in my room, though I have a wardrobe….
Cesium Heart
My state of mind is like an onion.Drowning under the ocean.Each layer,Is opposite of the other.But every layer I peel.Sadness is what I feel.HappinessIs covered in sadness.SadnessIs covered in joy.Joy is covered in pain.As if the hearts made out of alloy. ButOnce upon a time,My heart was like Cesium.I was rare.And my heart was white.Or…
Stuck in a daydream. (Story-1, part-16)
“Did I kill him?” Ron was asking Kate, biting into his sandwich. “Ya, did you?” She was curious to know what happened to that guy but also scared to know the truth. A part of her thought it’d be better if he died but then again Ron might go to prison for murder. Bestowing death…
Late night thoughts (17.07.2020)
Now a days I feel like as if I’m floating on rivers. And right now I’m in de Nile. A very old, lame joke. For some reason, I like silly things. I used to think that it’s a child’s duty to annoy their parents. So I used to annoy my mom. I’d make silly jokes…
Stuck in a daydream (Story-1, part-15)
The sun was shining brightly through the leaves. Rows of trees covered both sides of this road. It’s a very peaceful place to be in. A beautiful site to see. But Kate couldn’t see any of it. She couldn’t even feel anything. Numbness covered her all around like a fog. She couldn’t move a muscle…
Try
No matter how much I try In the end They all die Leaving me alone. Still I try Don’t know why. As if I’m running in a circle But no oracle Could foresee Where my next steps gonna be.
There are people who can’t fall asleep. They are called insomniac. There are people who can’t stay awake. They are called sleepyheads What are those people called who can’t fall asleep even though they are unable to stay awake? It’s like torture. To have something that’s never truly yours. To want the things that you…
Is all in vain?
I know I’m dumb But instead of being in pain Isn’t it better to be numb? I don’t know what to feel Can’t sit down or stand still So I just kneel Down in the rain I scream in vain Cause without you dear No one can hear My cry’s for help As if my…
The magician
A magician came to town She pleased the people who gathered all around. But when the lights dimmed And the sun went down. She gathered her things And left the town. Never to be seen again.
Whispers
A voice Whispers into my ears. “Don’t worry about that” Said it, for many years. The voice is quite now, No sounds, high or low. But the echo remained, In the wind, Flying without wings. Echo’s getting louder, Loud and free. Nothing it’s bound to And nowhere to be. The whisper echoes, Then the echo…
Stuck in a daydream
A while ago, I started to write a story. I published each part as I wrote them. But after a while I stopped writing. I always wondered if anyone was reading it or not. Recently I was told by someone that it would better if all the parts were in one post instead of a…
Late night thoughts (23.03.2020)
Life is like a flower. Yesterday we didn’t exist, today we do, tomorrow we won’t. So bloom bright and bold today.
Empty Inside
I have the right to be in pain to grieve and be insane. But I’m told I’m too emotional Confused and Irrational. Now all I see is darkness. The world seems lifeless. I can’t see the light Even if I try. With everyone I fight Everything makes me cry. I do my best, to hold…
Late night thoughts-Life without her
It’s been 12 days since my mom died. Still it doesn’t feel real. It feels like a nightmare that I just can’t wake up from. She was the only one who intentionally wasted her time, money and love on a lost cause like me. I made a lot of mistakes. But because of her I…
Late night thought ( 30/11/2019)
My mother is in the hospital. There’s nothing I can do but be next to her. Humans are so fragile! Within a few hours the life as we knew ended. Now it’s just sleepless nights, endless worries and food to survive. For the first few days I didn’t feel much. I was just numb or…
Story 1 (Part-14)
Kate was getting frustrated. She couldn’t help but imagine all the things that could go wrong. She wondered if Ron was okay, if he was even alive. Even though Ron told her to take the car and run away, she couldn’t. With a good view of the entrance she parked the car. Now she was…
When you see your crush
How can you not blush? When you see your crush. And your heart sways a little Like the flower bottlebrush Tell your heart-Hush. So your heart cuss. But slowly, It stays, Hush
Love and hate
I love you. I’ve always loved you. I know you love me. You’ll always love me. But I hate you. Maybe I’ll keep hating you. Maybe I’ll hurt you, And you’ll never know why. Maybe you’ll never understand why. Let me tell you this, What the problem is, Is that you are selfish. Oh how…
Six on Saturday (21-09-2019)
Leuenbergeria bleo Leuenbergeria bleo, formerly Pereskia bleo, is a leafy cactus, native to the shady, moist forests of Central America, that grows to a woody, prickly shrub about 2 m tall with large, orange flowers resembling rose blossoms- says Wikipedia. Guess that’s why it’s called rose cactus. I started it from a 6/7 inch cutting…
Six on Saturday (14.09.2019)
Catharanthus roseus It went through some neglect because of the construction work that was going on in our roof. But it’s thriving since being placed on the roof. She’s full of pink blooms. The white one is also blooming but not as vigorously as the pink one. New seedlings are popping up everywhere. So many…
Late night thoughts (2019)
Like every year, I made a few plans for this year too. And like every year I was unable to finish them. I don’t make unrealistic goals anymore but make realistic goals that I can actually accomplish. Still I fall behind and then eventually give up. This year I made two main goals. 1. I…
Me and you
No matter how much I love you If you hurt me Whether I realise it or not I’ll hurt you Over and over again Until my hearts content. I’ll grab your heart And squeeze it hard. I’ll cause you pain Again and again. Even if I’m willing to die for you, If you hurt me…
Moving on (or not)
The people we love Lives in our heart. They’re like a piece of us We cannot live apart. But to survive We stay alive Though far far away They stay now a day. It feels like being ripped apart Feels like a piece taken. Being away hurts too much Will forever remain broken. They say…
Life that I lead
What do I have in life other than tea, coffee and kids And basic human needs. The life I lead everyday In every single way Isn’t mine at all. Just hitting my head against a wall. Instead of staying alive, Looking for a way to just survive. Is this living my life? I question sometimes…
Things we do for our kids
We push our kids into adulthood without telling them what it is. We let them walk into the darkness Without any light to guide their way. Sometimes they learn to light a fire. Then they can guide themselves. But sometimes trying to do so they set themselves in fire and burn to death. Still we…
Six on Saturday: Hibiscus, jasmine, clematis and others
Hibiscus This hibiscus cutting was gifted to my father by a Facebook plant group where people loves to share their plants with each other. Don’t know what the flower looks like. Can’t wait to find out. I don’t have much experience with hibiscus. So I just cut the base of the cutting in an angle….
Story 1 (part-13)
Ron was struggling to breathe. The guy was chocking him from behind. Sometimes letting go is easier than fighting back. But now he wasn’t fighting for himself. He was fighting for her. With his blurry vision he looked around trying to find a way out. He could see a raised platform nearby, abandoned after the…
A million dreams
They sang loud and clear. “Cause every night I lie in bedThe brightest colours fill my headA million dreams are keeping me awakeI think of what the world could beA vision of the one I seeA million dreams is all it’s gonna takeOh a million dreams for the world we’re gonna make” But my trouble…
Lily
Lily bloomed in our garden for the 2nd time. The flowers are very fragrant but they last for a very short time. This variety was a gift from a fellow gardner.
Dreams or nightmares
I understandBut I just don’t get it.How can someone just ceaseTo exist.How can someone disappearInto thin airAs if they wereNever here.Am I dreaming?Is this real?Is it true?That I’ll never get to see you.Or is it a nightmare?Can I wake up now?
Now-a-days
Now a days we are back in lockdown. I’m back home being lazy. But the kids needs summer clothes. So I’m making some. One done. As my swing machine is out of order, I’m stitching it all by hand. It seemed a bit empty so painted the front a little.
Kundo 