I want

I want to open my eyesAnd see you hereTilt my head and find you there.Just close enough to touch, smell and hear.I want you hereSo very nearRight next to meLike it used to be. I just want this, that and suchAm I asking for too much? YesReality says. This was a very long poemThat will…

Let me hold on to you

Let me hold on to you.Let me hold on to youlike a leech,Let me fall awaywhen I don’t need you anymore.Don’t tear me awayfrom you please.Don’t question this.Let me hold on to you,Love you like this

Dragon Fruit

Dragon Fruit, in our roof garden. It’s also known as the white-fleshed pitahaya. Scientific name Selenicereus undatus . It has a sweet taste with a crunchy texture because of all the seeds. As far as I know, it’s called the dragon fruit because of the shape of the flower in bloom which resembles fire coming…

Pain

As the pain becomes unbearable,I reach for the painkillers.And I ask myselfwhy didn’t I reach for it before?Why did I let myself suffer for so long?What was I trying to accomplish?Was it worth it?PainThe truestmost purest part of lifePainThat rips you apartCuts you like a knife.PainThat keeps you awakeAnd drowns you at the same time.PainThat…

Late Night Thoughts (Depression)

People can help people. You can help someone with your words or actions. Maybe their problems won’t go away but you can comfort them and make them feel a little bit better. But how do you help yourself? How can you do that when you don’t know how? And even when you gather all the…

My refuge

As tears threaten to fall from my eyes, I say to myself “I am not sad, I am just hungry. Food will solve everything.” So I take refuge in dessertTo fill the desert In my heartTearing me apart

A million dreams

They sang loud and clear. “Cause every night I lie in bedThe brightest colours fill my headA million dreams are keeping me awakeI think of what the world could beA vision of the one I seeA million dreams is all it’s gonna takeOh a million dreams for the world we’re gonna make” But my trouble…

Lily

Lily bloomed in our garden for the 2nd time. The flowers are very fragrant but they last for a very short time. This variety was a gift from a fellow gardner.

Dreams or nightmares

I understandBut I just don’t get it.How can someone just ceaseTo exist.How can someone disappearInto thin airAs if they wereNever here.Am I dreaming?Is this real?Is it true?That I’ll never get to see you.Or is it a nightmare?Can I wake up now?

Now-a-days

Now a days we are back in lockdown. I’m back home being lazy. But the kids needs summer clothes. So I’m making some. One done. As my swing machine is out of order, I’m stitching it all by hand. It seemed a bit empty so painted the front a little.